Dear Althea

by Lindsey on September 23, 2016

in Dear Althea

Dear Althea,

Today was scary.

In an effort to occupy you for a couple minutes, I handed you a cracker, thinking you would gnaw it into a soggy mess. You were strapped into your chair in the kitchen, sitting right next to me, except for the ~5 seconds I walked into the dining room to get something.

When I came back in, I noticed that the cracker was no longer in your hand, but I assumed that meant it was in your lap where Puffs and Cheerios often turn up at the end of the day. You smiled up at me, so I sat back down next to you and thought nothing of it.

I don’t know how long you had that cracker in your mouth before you started choking on it. All I know is that you gagged, I turned to you, and I watched your little face turn purple right in front of me. In an instant, I screamed for your dad, ripped you out of your chair, and flipped you over on my lap like I somehow remembered from my Infant CPR training. I pounded on your back while he dug soggy cracker out of your mouth until you finally started crying. In reality, all of this happened in probably 30 seconds, but it felt like a lifetime passed before I felt you breathing again.

Two minutes later you were laughing and acting as if nothing had happened, while I held you as tight as I could, sobbing. Daddy helped us both calm down, but my heart is still pounding hours later.

There’s a part of me that never wants to forgive myself for letting this happen. We fought so hard to bring you into this world, and for that brief moment, I thought we were going to lose you. I screwed up, and I want to hate myself for putting us in that position. But I also did exactly what I was trained to do, and because of that, we’re all okay. I’m trying to remember that I’m human, and a first time mama, and that mistakes are bound to happen.

Today was scary, but I’m thanking God that we’re all okay.

I’m so, so, so sorry baby girl.

I love you so much ♥

xoxo,
Mama

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Althea: Eight Months

by Lindsey on September 6, 2016

in Althea Marie, J&L Start a Family

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She:

  • Went on her first (of many) beach vacations!
    • We spent a week at Topsail Island, NC, and had a blast! She liked the sand, but hated the waves. Her favorite part was having her Dino Pool right out on the beach with the rest of us!
      • Visited the Karen Beasley Sea Turtle Hospital, which she loved because she could actually see them swimming around and popping out of the water
    • Survived her longest road trip! We spent an overnight in Richmond, VA on our way down (5ish hours), but made the full drive home in one day! 12+ hours including stops, and she was a total champ!

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  • Did all kinds of fun things in Richmond
    • Shopped in Cary Town
    • Got her first tattoo to freak out Grandma! A dinosaur, right on the middle of her belly :)
    • Walked on Belle Isle
    • Ate at a bunch of different restaurants – Bonnie Blue (during the drive), Mellow Mushroom, Perly’s, Fancy Biscuit, Rise (on the way home)

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  • Also spent a day in Wilmington, NC
    • Walked through a bunch of little shops
    • Had lunch at Front Street Brewery and ice cream from Boombalatti’s
    • Got a drive-by photo of Brooke Davis’ house, because mama is OBSESSED with One Tree Hill :)

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  • Sleeps in her own room, and it’s going mostly well! She still has her off-nights, but she usually sleeps from 8ish-4ish, eats, and then goes back to sleep til I wake her up at 730.
  • Sits in a high chair at restaurants. And it’s obvious that she loves being up at the table with everyone else, instead of leaned back in her car seat.
  • Had her first girl’s night with the Wardzala girls, and LOVES her BFF Imogen!
  • Spent lots of time swimming, at Aunt April’s house, and at Maggie’s aunt’s house!
  • Went to her first Pitt Football Game, and had a great time! She was cheering and “clapping” through the whole game!

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  • Eats like a champ! New foods this month included a waffle, a pancake, canned pumpkin, green beans, oatmeal cereal, puffs, and her first time eating from a pouch on the go!
  • Growls like a tiger. We don’t know where it came from, and we don’t know how long she’ll keep it going, but right now it’s ALL THE TIME. It’s cute for a little while, but not so much when she’s growling because we’re not feeding her fast enough!
  • Is SO CLOSE to crawling. She gets up on all fours, and moves her legs, but not her arms, so she ends up face planting. It will definitely happen any day now. She’s already able to get where she wants to go, but we’re terrified for her to be able to go at a faster speed!

We:

  • Were so, so ready for a vacation, and it did not disappoint!
    • I spent a large part of our time there sitting around a puzzle, which is one of my favorite parts of going to the beach!
    • Got to see a turtle nest hatching for the first time! We only caught the very last two turtles making their way into the ocean, but it was amazing!
    • Got to explore two more cities we’ve never been to. We really liked Richmond, and definitely plan to return someday, and Wilmington will become a permanent stop on our annual beach trips.
    • Went out sans baby, to a bar with my brothers and their girlfriends. It was a short, but nice getaway.

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  • Met with the priest and education director at our church, so I can start my RCIA classes! Jut will be my sponsor, and I’m excited to get started!
  • Jut spent a weekend at Fantasy Football drafts, and I spent most of that time hanging out with Maggie and her girls.

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  • Had a low-key Labor Day weekend to finish off the summer. Went to the Pitt game and over to Jut’s brother’s house, spent lots of time playing video games (Lego PS4 games are our favorite!), went to a park with Jut’s gram, sister, and our nieces, and then Jut had to work on Monday, so we just hung out and worked on organizing a few things around the house. It was a perfectly relaxing way end to a busy few weeks, with lots of busy weekends coming up in September!

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Althea: Seven Months

August 12, 2016

That face is so, very her right now! I’m a week behind on posting, because I’ve spent every waking moment getting ready for our beach trip!! She: Finally got to meet her Papa Kim’s side of the family, and more of the Dunmyre clan! Went to her first Pirate Game Went on her first road trip, […]

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Internal Battles

July 18, 2016

If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past six months, it’s that having a child creates this constant struggle between the thoughts of “I can’t wait until she…” and “I hope she stays little forever.” Most of the time, those internal battles include things like I can’t wait until she can sit up unassisted, but I hope […]

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Althea: Six Months

July 6, 2016

Happy Half-Birthday, Baby Bird!! She: Got baptized! (More on this to come…) Attended the US Open Golf Tournament Attended her first Greek Festival (of MANY) Met some new friends! Her new BFF Imogen, and a few cute boys, Luca, Leo, and Ollie :) Started solid foods. She loves Avacados and Bananas, but hates Peas. (Can’t say I blame […]

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Dear Althea

June 16, 2016

Sometimes I write letters to my daughter. You can read the rest here! Dear Althea, Your first three weeks of life were magical. We were in a constant state of awe, and blissfully unaware of what was to come. You’re next two-ish months, however, were what can only be described as Hell on Earth. Between the […]

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Althea: Five Months

June 7, 2016

She: Has two teeth! Both bottom middle teeth are officially out, and it actually wasn’t the worst thing ever! She wears an amber necklace, and whatever it does, it’s working! Is still not consistently rolling over, but at this point I think it’s because she just doesn’t want to. She can definitely do it, she […]

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A Tale of Two Dresses

June 6, 2016

As we approach Althea’s baptism this weekend, the story of my own has been re-told numerous times over the past few weeks, and since it’s hilarious, I thought I’d share it here :) Two important things to note: I had two dresses to wear for my baptism, the one my mom wore for hers, which […]

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Althea: Four Months

May 6, 2016

She: Is already one third of a year old! Wah!! Makes all kinds of awesome noises now, and “talks” to us everyday! Her sitter, Tammy, sent us this awesome video of her watching Jake and the Neverland Pirates :) A video posted by Lindsey Dunmyre (@smalls530) on Apr 11, 2016 at 9:59am PDT Is being […]

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Dear Althea

April 8, 2016

Sometimes I write letters to my husband, and now I’m going to start writing them to my daughter as well… Dear Althea, I know you can’t possibly know yet, what your daddy and I went through to bring you into this world, but sometimes it seems like you do. Every single day I spend a few moments […]

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